Are your motives right or left?

I often times have to ask myself this question. Now you might say that it should be right or wrong not, left. You might also pat me on the back for using a nice play on words and for that I say thanks lol, but that is the way I ask myself when questioning motives. The reason for this is that the answer to it is like taking a direction in the left or right direction. While both will make you go forward only one is the right path. I have been getting different forks in the road as of late. I have always wanted to be a rock star. Ever since I was little I wanted to be apart of a band. The lights, sounds, fans all of it, I wanted it. I even pretended giving my Grammy acceptance speech. Seriously it has been in me to be something bigger. So slowly but surely those motives started to mature as I did. They eventually crept into my worship. I would always want to lead but not to give glory to God but to have people praise me. I always looked for that pat on the back or verbal praise like a drug addict looks for their next high. It truly was sick. Until a season came in which it was taken away. It was long season, about a year and a half to be more precise. I didn't get to do anything. God broke me down the only way God can. I was bitter resentful, downright mad. But eventually I was humbled and repentant. God had made me realize that my motives were screwed up and had to take me back to the proverbial fork in the road and set me on the straight and narrow path. C.S. Lewis talked about it best when he said that a man can go down a path but no progression ever take place because he is going the wrong way. So ask yourself are you going right or left. I would plead with you to check your motives. They can lead you in a way you have no business going. I know have the right motives. I only know this because I check them in every decision that I make. Why am I doing this ? Know that God wants nothing but the best for you. He is your biggest fan. Look not for the praise of man but the unconditional love of the almighty God. Check yourself and he will progress more than your motives and your hand could've ever gotten you. Right or left? your choice. Thanks for reading.